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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

regret

..eternal promise..

met him somewhere in my past..
saw him walking so fast..
found him the next day in a mass
and he asked asked my name after a class

but then soon.. he said he's leaving..
we tried writing and even calling..
but its really hard believing..
one day he'll come back waving..
saying its worthwhile waiting..

i heard my friends talking..
that he's preparing for a wedding..
so i mailed him saying..
why u never told me anything..
then I said I have one thing..
that in my mind kept lingering..
i should have said this bling bling.
. coz what i feel for u was something..

i drowned myself til i get cold..
i decided to forget and never hold..
i know we could never have both..
c0z we're from the other side of the world..

shocked and amazed he called..
told me hes in the airport..
so i went and get tossed..
by his warmth embraced and i paused..
"why did he come back for a caused,..
when all my feelings had lost
and put all my love in my work"

my heart was beating..
but my mind kept refusing..
deep inside me; i know i love him..
i have waited for 3 yrs to see him..
now he's here saying..
lets try and figure out if there's something..

it was the best day of my life..
i felt i was in the middle of high
flying with an angel of mine..
praying this will last a lifetime ..

maybe its just some misunderstanding..
that brought us into fighting..
some simple things became complicated
its communication and we should have trusted..
but if i only listened ..
to what still small voice had whispered..
maybe by now we have our children.

.time was so short.. he had to go back home..
i didn't notice time had flown fast..
i crammed to tell him .. what a crazy i was..
not to show the real feelings i had..
so now he's leaving in mad..
"i flew halfway the ocean..
just to see you again..
i was about to get married..
but i chose to try..
if there something between u and i.."

it was happy and amazing..
but we always had misunderstanding
i hate to see us fighting..
with nonsense freaky thing..
and sometimes we said something..
we didn't really mean..

"there is just one thing i want to tell you..
i love the haneehlore i used to talked to..
not the new Hanni Miller i see in you.
you know i always prayed for us too..
but honey u never let me love you.."

i cried billion lake..
why did i let it happened for God sake!!
this is the most tremendous thing..
i could never take..
and in one week i kept awake..
that was the idiot decision i ever made..

i tried to win him back
but he need to go
it was a short visit
and i should have known so
to never let things easy
and now its gone crazy
and now am here all alone
i still see him in every corner of my home
so i decided to move to another place
where i should start another phase.

time has passed and we remain friends..
That's the wonderful thing I would like to thank
i met someone new and he met too..
i tried relationships but it failed though..
its unfair to be with someone i can never love back..
even if i tried to hide the feelings i had..
they knew it still him i love deep in my heart.

God knows how much i still pray..
that somehow our path will across one day..
to show him that i do really care..
and how much i go astray..
without him each of my days..
but if i wont see him ever again..
i know my life would be in vain..

His memories would be forever.
. from the day i saw him with the member,..
until the day I saw Him never..
It will live in my heart ever..
together with the memories when he was an Elder..

I know one day we'll meet someone..
who will be there for a lifetime on..
but one thing for sure..
this pain could never be cure..
i know i could never lie..
that no matter how hard i try
its still him i see inside..

He will always be a part of me
our memories will always be
but now its history.

There's one greatest wish in my mind
to hold him again just one tight
to say i love you till i die
and my love will ever last until my second life.
created October 16, 2005

Wow, Haneehlore!! I don't know what to say, that was beautiful. I wonder who you're talking about?? Nice friend that I am finally reading this 1 1/2 years after your posted it. Magulo ang buhay talaga. Grabe ang decisions natin. Ako rin maraming regret...

Posted by DANA on Saturday, March 14, 2009 - 2:04 AM